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| Hello my xanga community!!
For anyone who ever chats with me via AIM, please change my sn to a different one:
ra7poison
Yes, that is my new alias. LLHOTAZN69LL...may you rest in peace forever...
Ill be converting to the new sn in a few days...long enough to copy everyone i know over =P
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| "Im going through so much in life right now! Do you know where Im coming from? Im holding the weight of the world on my shoulders!!! *more cry cry* Cuz of that, I can unexpectedly flash at other people for the smallest problems and make them feel like shit. In addition to that, everyone should give me sympathy and understand what Im going through."
You've met these people before at some point in your life...whether they're your friends or just random ass strangers. Usually they are someone in your circle of friends though because you are giving them the time of day. Admit it, if this was some stupid stranger saying this shit to you, I would not expect that you'd give them more than 5 minutes of your precious (warcraft or other important activity) time...thus writing them off as some unstable emotional mother fucker. Why am i saying this now? I have no idea why at this point in time but goddammit, it bugs the shit outta me. In Peter Griffin's words, this grinds my fucking gears.
So here i am just having a casual conversation with someone and BOOM, mother fucker flashes at me and acts hella crazy! Im like, geezus lord man/woman, wtf is your problem? I only asked this small thing. Ok sure, you got some problems, but who the fuck else in this world doesnt? COME ON NOW! Do you realistically think that the people around you are floating around in blissful joy and happiness that they dont deal with ANY type of STRESS? Come on man/woman, learn to control your emotions or something and not take it out on people who have done shit to deserve such a treatment. SIGH, im just talking hella shit cuz it annoys me so much! I especially hate it when I hear, "You dont have any idea what i go through. Your life is so stress free and you arent juggling anything near what im doing..." OOOOOOOOOOOOK Captain Planet, you arent the only one trying to stop pollution out there so dont try to make it look like you got so much shit going on. We all got shit going on and it bugs the shit outta me when you put yourself on that high ass pedestal. Reevaluate your situation for once and contemplate whether it its more practical to take it like a man (or woman), quit bitching, and just straight up do it. Sitting and bitching to people arent gonna make anything better...if anything it makes ya look worse!
Im beating the message over ya heads and i apologize to all you. Ill make it up with some happy posts or some shit. Excuse me as this is one of those rare moments (not really hahahah) when i need to just rant.
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| Everybody has a favorite X-Men. For me, it was Wolverine. He cant quite shoot lasers... fly on metallic wings...or do anything particularly flashy. Hes just a dude with a "Screw you, I do things my way" attitude who has cCcCrrrazy claws that practically cut through anything. I remember when I was a young lad that Id wake up just to get ready to watch episodes of the cartoon show. It was THE show to watch (besides Power Rangers >_< back when Megazord and the green robot (Dragonzord?) was still hella tight). Ive always questioned this "wolverine" guy cuz I didnt know why the heck he was so strong. Hes just a dude with freakin claws and hes punking the other suckas around. I mean come on man, it makes no sense to a kid!
THEN I was introduced to the Marvel trading cards. These particular cards had on the back the statistics of the mutant and everything was on a scale of 7...with 1 being the weakest. Id look at Jubilee and wanna spit on the card cuz of how much she sucked. That and also the fact that shes a common card they throw in the pack when you buy it...so you end up with freakin 50 copies! Sorry you Jubilee fans out there, but damn, find a better superhero haha. Back to Wolverine though...this guy has a fighting ability of 7!!! THATS CRAZZZY! There are no other X-Men with a fighting ability of 7 (i know some goddamn internet trolls gonna find a NO NAME retarded x-man with 7 fighting ability just to make me look stupid lol). Storms got some godlike elemental powers...Cyclops can shoot intense laser beams...Beast can hang upside down...but none of them can hang when they fight against Wolverine. Thats saying a lot, being that Cyclops and Storm are both leaders of their respective Gold and Blue team. People say that Wolverine fights so well because of his incredible regeneration powers. This is something I want to know more about.
My man loving brother Matt used to work at the comic book store and read up on that crap all day long. He claims that Wolverine is practically indestructible because he can heal through anything. That just baffles me. Youd see him in the show get knocked out on many occasions coming back with band aids around his body. If he gets knocked out...doesnt that mean that the regen ability takes a bit of time to start kicking? I dunno man, To that extent, I think the regen ability is overrated.
Another ability/trait/mutant power that baffles me is Cyclop's laser. Ok, so we know hes retardedly strong. He can practically blow a hole into anything. Nevertheless...his laser is still but a beam of LIGHT. Light can be reflected. I told my friend Roger that if there was such a guy as Mirror Man, that Cyclops would not stand a chance. Hed get all his lasers reflected back and die from the impact. However, Roger said that NO, the lasers are so strong that it can melt the mirrors, thus killing mr generic Mirror Man. What the deuce?!?!?! I wasnt convinced. I learned that light beams can be deflected and lasers should be no different. No siree bob I wasnt a happy camper >=O I took this issue up with my engineering coworkers and lo and behold...i was wrong (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, sorry Roger >_<)!!!! They said that a laser can definitely melt a mirror if the intensity level is high enough. Mirrors arent a perfect reflection and probably absorbs a few percent of the energy reflected at it. If the threshold is reached, it melts.
So much for my short term mutant creating career. You suck Mirror Man! Damn you for damning me.
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| AHH-Lo people who I never talk to anymore. Its been a while since i wrote anything and yanno what i think...I think this Xanga community is pretty dead. Havent been gaming lately (due to reasons i dont wanna talk about right now) and have a crapload more time on my hands than normal. What do you do with hella downtime, just like when you're at work? You are stalking the inbox in your email and refreshing the new weblogs on xanga (or in my case, both of that and also checking up magic articles on forum sites). I need a new site or a good book to read or something man! Geezus theres simply not enough going on online anymore =/. I tried picking up a book that Terry recommended a long time ago, "Anna Karenina." Books pretty long and it takes a lotta pages to the same things...but its somewhat interesting. =/ Arg...who would imagine that getting back into reading would take so much work haha. So gamings kinda dead now...and then theres reading...which is just long and shit...and then theres life outside the house. @_@ Such a scary thought...going outside to see the sun and crap. Those of you who know me know how much i detest operating during the day. Its like the sun drains my energy man eck. Ok i dont know what im writing about but the basic message is for people to write more. Yes you freakers, go out and ramble your asses off so that i can have something to chuckle about when im moping around at home =D. I hope thats good enough motivation for you to generate more entries hehe
Onto something worth mentioning. So the other day i went to Great America rollercoaster theme park (kinda like magic mountain for you socal'er) and it was freakin empty. We went to top gun and there were 3 people in front of us at the FRONT of the line. You *itches know that for those who wanna wait the extra long line just to get on the front of the ride...its usually not worth it. But damn, it was THAT short. Its weird yanno? So i say it was probably because its really early in the morning and it takes people time to get to the park. Turns out the entire day was like that. It wasnt empty like a ghost town but the lines were just really really short. Ive never seen it before in my life. I think it took us about...1-2 hours to ride all the rides? Pretty worth it if you ask me. So i go home...
...and my sister-in-law tells me that a kid died there the DAY BEFORE! Apparently they found a 4-year-old body floating in the wave maker or something. Its like this giant pool. There were many issues that were brought up and i dont know the exact details but something about not enough life guards on duty or kid wandered off and parents were looking for him/her? Im not sure but its rediculously sad (may that kid rest in peace). That event kinda stigmatized people from coming to the park and in addition to that...it was FRIDAY THE 13TH. Hmmm, maybe thats why the park was so empty? Perhaps...just MAYBE. I kinda got the chills when i got home and realized it. Its not like im superstitious or anything but to know that a kid died there the day before and also that you were going on an unlucky day kinda gave me goosebumps. -_-
Ok entry is reaching a very dangerous length so im ending here. Viet ratpoison6969696969 logging off
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| People have been generally raised with the notion that they must be strong in order to persevere. I agree that this statement is pretty standard...I mean, who would want to grow up weak? I also believe that people try to give off this picture of themselves as strong with a set of good principles while steering clear of their insecurities or weaknesses. We've socialized long enough to be able to keep a composed image of ourselves whenever we meet people or even talk to friends. For the ones who are closer, because there is already an established degree of trust, you can give off a better and more accurate depiction of yourself and say whatever the hell you want. They have already been accepted into your inner circle of friends. For the other group of people who arent there yet, you can care less. They can talk as much shit as they want to...it would not affect you. Whatever happens between you two, you will always have this barrier of defense to keep a proper composure...afterall, we've been raised with this notion. Lets say you get in a verbal fight with someone and they start talking hella shit. 1. You simply turn the other way and leave. 2. You beat the fuck outta them. 3. You try to reach some form of compromise/resolution. 4. Leave and come back with people and then beat the fuck outta them hahaha. You get my point, it all lies outside of your circle of care. I know im dragging this description out, but its important because i notice it a lot with people. I notice it so much that im starting to think that its NATURAL to have a facade in public. @_@
With this in mind, i want to bring up another scenario: one's composure with the people within that circle of trust. I feel that no matter how strong a person is, the moment someone within that circle turns a 180, your composure goes out the window. Hows it that someone you trust and/or love so much can cause you so much pain? I think its so interesting and alarming at the same time. Why cant we keep ourselves in a composed state whenever we talk to someone we care so much for? Like family...girlfriend/boyfriends...or even close friends? Maybe its the emotional attachment that is involved with the said party =/ I know for damn fact that whenever i argue with any family members, girlfriends (or boyfriends if its a Sunday), or close friends that I get into this enrageeeeeeed state. More often then not, I lose my cool. Things get out of hand but damn, i cant help it though...and i dont know why. =/ Im able to maintain this perception that im strong with strangers but it doesnt even apply with what i mentioned above. Another situation thats kinda different but sorta relates to this is how we react to our close ones being in danger. I think its pretty crazy (amazing also) how some people enter into this ballistic state whenever they find their love ones hurt. You feel this anger thats indescribable. A last example is whenever your love ones say something to you...like, if they were to criticize you for some problem in your life. If it was some stranger, you can give a rats ass. Since they are so close to you, their words go on to affect you in such a profound way. I know for damn fact that there have been times in your lives when your family/love ones have said something and it pained you days or even weeks on end. Its that indescribable sense of pain that you feel deep inside yourself...a pain that hurts the most =/ How and why do they have so much power over you? Even in all you years of experience in life, you are still vulnerable to being broken down in that few seconds of verbal exchange. Anyways, its just a thought that ive been noticing lately. Thanks for putting up with my overly drawn out ramblings.
Until next time when i cant sleep til 7 in the morning =D
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